Soon It Will Make Sense!

I was honestly going to write a poem…Then I wandered away, yes, in my mind and consequently lost the trend of my thoughts.
So, as I struggled to put words to the feeling that was begging to be released, in my wonder and wander, I visited a wedding website. This website, like most I have visited, gave the options of listening to music at the background. Now, it is not usually my style to listen to music when writing so I usually seek a quiet place to do my thang because it poses a kind of distraction to the flow of my writing. Guess it is because I listen to music more for its wording than for its beat- more so in the case where some songs are supposed to send butterflies or rather wake up the ones already there, if you know what I mean.
But somehow, it was the wording of the music that kinda brought me into the ''feel'' of this. And did I put the music on repeat mode? Ur guess is as good as mine. Talk about ''clean'',''neat'', good music generously reeled off by some of the best hands as far as that genre of music is concerned.

Hmmmm... Tears well up in my eyes not only because of the sweetness of the words but also of the genuineness the wording seem to reflect and for the ideal situation of that which the words also seem to represent. Or rather, the ideal love situation it sings about. Imagine the bliss of holy matrimony or of honeymoon laced with the beauty of an undefiled couple who are trying to discover and explore nature and of course, themselves in such a manner that heaven smiles at and hence sends its blessings on the outcome of their copulation and all that they set their minds to do thereafter.


My mind goes down to the many sides of this phenomenon called love and sadly, down to the abuse of it in a way that can only be mildly put as ''faulty''. Pray tell, how else can one mildly describe a situation where loving one person is seen as putting all eggs in one basket?! Or these days, an ''upgraded version’’ that says, ‘‘put your eggs in one basket, AND WATCH IT’’. How so sad indeed! Give us back our hearts, oh Lord. I also ponder on the depth of love in its entirety-I mean from the angle of the creator to His ''created''. Talking about that kind of love, how many of us really agree with me that as long as life remains, we may not be able to grasp the depth of that love? Point is, it is so deep, I mean deeper than any human mind can fathom or than any ready writer can capture in words! Story for another day, right?

But really, I am thinking, am worried, am pondering and well, maybe a bit in doubt! Truth be told however, these singers inspire me with their choice of words. So beautiful, I must note! And while I won’t bother to search from where or what their motivation came from, I wanna believe that this kind could only have been from a source higher than these guys! *Aside - why do guys sing better love songs than ladies?* Hm mm… Whether they accept it or not and sadly, whether they believe in what they have put together, it is from a source indeed higher! Brings to mind…‘’Flesh and Blood has not revealed this to you but my Father which is in heaven''. The wording of the songs just agrees with something in my spirit! . The creator will bring to pass His desire in whatever ‘‘vessel’’ He so desires! It is His call, and the sooner we realize that the Berra! I guess this will help some of us that have a problem with those we consider ‘'imperfect''!

I also reflect on how the love phenomenon alters our lives! Does anyone remember this quote, ‘‘I am constantly amazed by love's sheer power to alter and define our lives'' * If you do, well, I am not promising anything yet! *giggling*. But like the one who said that, I kinda think it is so true. For instance, picture a lady giggling to her self at dinner just at the thought of the one she loves. Or when his name is probably mentioned in a movie or someone does something that reminds her of the one she loves. You know that near -stupid -feeling that there isn't anything else that matters so far the one she loves is here and near! The several read from ‘’sentence to sentence’’ of his text messages as if it is the bible she is meditating on or the butterflies in her tummy when his call comes on! Lol! Hm mm... *head shaking* Am sorry ladies, I don't mean to ''sell'' us to those dudes. Ok, Ok...Before the guys begin to feel comfortable, picture the guy who eats excessively because the one he loves has'' left'' him, just so that we won’t notice he is dire need (of help). Hehehehe or the one that would run helter-skelter just so that his heartthrob would be fine and not be down with lemme think...Monica Peters! Lol! Or picture a guy who wont take no for an answer but keep pestering the ''chic'' until she probably gives in. Imagine him in that ''I CANT GIVE UP NOW'' mood! Lol! You know gals; these guys have various ways of expressing how they feel at pain, loss and even pleasure. Some of them would just act like they don’t care, Na lie o! You have got to take a closer look to see! OK, enough on both sides. At least now we don draw one one Lol!

It is all so beautiful and it is just my way of trying to get you into my flow and the fact that love or rather what most people perceive to be ''love'' alters our lives indeed! And how so amazing onlookers think that we have lost our minds when the love bugs stings! In fact, just like our walk with God is supposed to make some people think we have lost our minds so also is the one that is in love. Or is it to mention the way we tend to be blinded to the truth when we are in love? Has it ever crossed your mind to wonder why and how difficult it is to communicate to one who is in love about the fault of the one they are in love with? You know, it simply can’t make sense whether they have such faults, after all the one who is LOVE personified, loves us with all our faults! He is a biased judge and so long as we stay true to Him and no matter what the devil does, we will come out triumphant! So, it really shouldn’t be so much of a wonder that those who genuinely love don’t magnify the faults of the one they love and therefore, have indeed lost their minds to we onlookers!

May I have your permission to mention those love circles or is it triangle that we sometimes find ourselves? You know like we ''love'' someone, that one ''loves'' another and the one they ‘‘love’’ ‘’loves’’ another! Hehehehe... It isn't really funny, I tell you. Personally, I consider this aspect of love as simply unfair! The humor in it just stings badly! Another quote I would give something for should you get ''Unrequited love kills its victims..." *Clue: A romance movie starring Kate Winslet*

Love, no doubt alters our lives! Our very essence! Little wonder we fail BIG when we miss the one to whom we ought to love. I say this with every sense of seriousness and responsibility, all that propaganda of ''BIG GIRLS don't cry or the one about,'' it is SISSY for a guy to cry is a bunch of crap! When the thing really hits you, you sure would ''break '' down and in fact, weep like a child! Methinks, it is only natural to be sad over such a monumental loss. I have witnessed both and so I sure know what I am talking to you about! It is not a funny sight! I recall a situation where a friend who cried over his loved one who walked away and instead of helping him ''heal'', I couldn't help crying along with him . And you bet that did the magic as he stopped crying and asked me to stop! I simply told him I joined in the crying when he won’t stop and let us get down to ‘’business’’! Later, we were able to talk about this and that! That drama reminds me of yet another favorite line of scripture. …‘’for we do not have a high priest who can’t be touched with the feelings of our infirmity’’. Though I feel that was probably an unprofessional way of handling that issue if I were to go the line of a counselor but I simply couldn’t stand a guy break down in such a manner known to us girls. But believe me, that single act of vulnerability on the platform of friendship, will forever make me cherish the friendship of and with that dude. He still stands ‘’tall’’ in my ‘’hall’’ of friendship. I simply respect his ability to express his grief in such a manner. I do not think he is a sissy, I think he is simply himself! Hurting is no fun stuff, people. I have been there, done that! And in my own case, it was a lone walk! Thank God for putting Jesus where I could and can reach Him! I would have simply lost my mind! May I pause to solicit that we take it easy with the way and manner we break hearts. Sort yourself out first before messing up the other person's life. And please let's watch what and who it is we love when we ''think'' we are, only for us to ''fall'' out of love and then mess up the other person’s life! If you aint up to it, please don't start it at all! Let's reduce the number of hurting people in the world today! Let's reduce the number of those singing under my umbrella one moment and take a bow the next! PLEASE.

Anyways, where or what do I intend to get to you in all these bla bla?... I was gonna write a poem. Poem? Well, before the poets in the house harass an amateur like me.

Aiight, my poem titled, One Day It Will Make Sense
Hm mm…one day all that I have bla bla about will make sense
Some day ,my inability to describe the feeling fighting for release will make sense too!
Soon… it will All Make MORE sense.

As for my poem, one day it will make sense why I didn’t eventually write it.

AWemoreborelanlay
080052009
6:44pm

A Tall Order?

Can someone spare a minute of sleep? Can another just pause a while to pray? I mean, are there people (still) standing in the gap till date? Am sorry to ever question this,but there seem to be alot of "weight" around. I can feel it. It is overwhelming. And just because it is meant to be a collective thing,this "eagle" needs more than the present 'amount' of wind beneath its wings to fly! It is only flapping its wings... And "Take Off" is expedient! In fact,(further)delay is dangerous&detrimental to survival! Er...Please stay awake. Please stay alive. Please stay alert. PLEASE.

-Your Friend,
AWEMOREBORELANLAY