When I wrote Yau ranan haifua na ne last year to ‘mark’ my 26th birthday, little did I know it was the beginning of what I would like to call, a crusade on the mother of all social networks. It has afforded me the opportunity to read and share with some of the most beautiful people this world has 'housed'. I have also been encouraged in my writings and I have had the reason to believe more in myself! I celebrate you all this last one year and thank you for finding my space, worth your time. Both the online and offline commentators! :-)
I bring to mind how that I would read and write in bedrooms, bathrooms, dining rooms, and sitting rooms. When eating,hungry, sad, happy, excited and anything! Believe me, therefore when I state here again that I am grateful to all the people who have showed me great love by reading some of my rantings , thoughts, submissions and think that it is good stuff! I thank you. Honestly, some of them, I understand, have also been rantings from an almost deranged mind that God has got in control.
In all, I embraced the inherent gift of writing from those very low times and how therapeutic it was in venting! In writing, I have imagined been in places I had never been but would want to, people I have never met but would want to.All of this as far as I can articulate. I remember the days when I cry and my vision blurred and I will still write! The days I feel so excited and won’t even be able to find the words to express how I feel. Phew! From all the many failures to the successes to the depths and heights in God and life! I would just try and write and sometimes cry and write! …
I rememeber all that I had to deal with in the last 26 years and gratitude wells up in my inside. From the innermost being of the 'real' me. I mean from the depth of my soul to the casing of me, called, the body. I talk as one who has come to chase after the richness of the soul and spirit than of the body, I am grateful to God!
I remember...
The little me of messed up past ,cracked toys that brought more shame than fame, the me of the phobia for all that was supposed to be enjoyed in the original concept of the creator, the me of bitterness instead of betterment, the me that came out of darkness into God's marvelous light.
I remember!
And I am grateful.I remember the past and I cringe. I remember the verbal abuses that got me questioning my parenthood! What was wrong with my full lips I questioned at some point? Nah. baby girl, your lips, your hips and finger tips will make your prince charming melt anyday! I told myself that when the scales fell off my eyes and that is all I need to confound my abusers! I remember the flashers, I remember the sex under the bridge by human beings who had lost the will to stay sane! I remember the men who have lost their reason to be men and acted out the beast in them...
I remember Anne Frank and how I identify with her in so many areas that I almost thought I was doing my story! I remember the many near death experiences I had had and more gratitude well up!I remember all the many birthday cakes I missed and yeah, the ones I didnt. I remember how dad's gruesome murder in this city has remained a mystery till now. You know, I wonder how and why I still remain patriotic in a country that has failed me so. I marvel at the gift of love for all that has given hate in return and I am quick to remember God and I immediately know that the seed and or the will to love He has sown in me and how so much love can go round now!! Isn't love a miracle!!!!!!!!!
I remember and am humbled!I remember how I hid all these pains these past years in the corners of my heart and in the ink on my notepads and I realise it is better and yeah, cathartic letting out 'secrets' !I can not agree more with the quote that a parachute is best when it is in use!...So, I write today because it is my birthday! I think the name, Omobolanle, is more prophetic and perhaps, a projection into the wealth and richness of the soul that I seek and pursue in life than the tangibility of wealth that can or may develop wings and disappear! Whoever gave me the name must have been divinely inspired .(smile). As for my surname? It aint a permanent address, if you know what I mean and I aint going there with you! *feigning anger* ;-)
Turning 27 today is for me a plus! I am hopeful and that is why I say so. I am grateful too. There is still so much grounds to cover. I know. So many more people to meet,share, bless , be blessed through and all. I am going to think and live this next one as one who is counting every hour like it is the last and going to give it my best shot! I am going to make it count. I am courageuos. I am encouraged. I am motivated!Dont get it twisted...I choose to do something about what I can do something about and leave to a power higher and greater than me to do that which I can not do for and by myself.
I know...
that
Life is complicated by time.
If one knew how things would turn, guess there would be less to probably regret because we would make our choices and decisions slower, surer and wiser! Life has taught me amongst other things that what I do while am waiting determines my character , it is therefore, wise for me to remain in the 'passenger seat' of the best chauffeur that aids life journey!
I am grateful STILL...
I remember again-
I have watched with admiration and appreciation to God as family members embrace the love of God after years that I have trusted and believed God for them.
- I have also watched marriages on the brink of collapse come back again.
-I have seen friends off to the airport, car parks and bid them farewell, amidst tears of joy that no matter where this life takes us, we will still be friends.
-This last one year, I have seen my self sleep deeper, and quit worrying over what lies ahead! -I have summoned enough courage to learn and keep learning from experiences and though some of them are to be forgotten, their lessons have stayed!
- I have embraced forgiveness, compassion and a newer zeal to contribute my quota to nation building.
- Yeah, I have watched myself walk however slowly but surely, away from all that cause pain!
I am ready...
- I make bold to say , bring it on Lord!
I bring to mind how that I would read and write in bedrooms, bathrooms, dining rooms, and sitting rooms. When eating,hungry, sad, happy, excited and anything! Believe me, therefore when I state here again that I am grateful to all the people who have showed me great love by reading some of my rantings , thoughts, submissions and think that it is good stuff! I thank you. Honestly, some of them, I understand, have also been rantings from an almost deranged mind that God has got in control.
In all, I embraced the inherent gift of writing from those very low times and how therapeutic it was in venting! In writing, I have imagined been in places I had never been but would want to, people I have never met but would want to.All of this as far as I can articulate. I remember the days when I cry and my vision blurred and I will still write! The days I feel so excited and won’t even be able to find the words to express how I feel. Phew! From all the many failures to the successes to the depths and heights in God and life! I would just try and write and sometimes cry and write! …
I rememeber all that I had to deal with in the last 26 years and gratitude wells up in my inside. From the innermost being of the 'real' me. I mean from the depth of my soul to the casing of me, called, the body. I talk as one who has come to chase after the richness of the soul and spirit than of the body, I am grateful to God!
I remember...
The little me of messed up past ,cracked toys that brought more shame than fame, the me of the phobia for all that was supposed to be enjoyed in the original concept of the creator, the me of bitterness instead of betterment, the me that came out of darkness into God's marvelous light.
I remember!
And I am grateful.I remember the past and I cringe. I remember the verbal abuses that got me questioning my parenthood! What was wrong with my full lips I questioned at some point? Nah. baby girl, your lips, your hips and finger tips will make your prince charming melt anyday! I told myself that when the scales fell off my eyes and that is all I need to confound my abusers! I remember the flashers, I remember the sex under the bridge by human beings who had lost the will to stay sane! I remember the men who have lost their reason to be men and acted out the beast in them...
I remember Anne Frank and how I identify with her in so many areas that I almost thought I was doing my story! I remember the many near death experiences I had had and more gratitude well up!I remember all the many birthday cakes I missed and yeah, the ones I didnt. I remember how dad's gruesome murder in this city has remained a mystery till now. You know, I wonder how and why I still remain patriotic in a country that has failed me so. I marvel at the gift of love for all that has given hate in return and I am quick to remember God and I immediately know that the seed and or the will to love He has sown in me and how so much love can go round now!! Isn't love a miracle!!!!!!!!!
I remember and am humbled!I remember how I hid all these pains these past years in the corners of my heart and in the ink on my notepads and I realise it is better and yeah, cathartic letting out 'secrets' !I can not agree more with the quote that a parachute is best when it is in use!...So, I write today because it is my birthday! I think the name, Omobolanle, is more prophetic and perhaps, a projection into the wealth and richness of the soul that I seek and pursue in life than the tangibility of wealth that can or may develop wings and disappear! Whoever gave me the name must have been divinely inspired .(smile). As for my surname? It aint a permanent address, if you know what I mean and I aint going there with you! *feigning anger* ;-)
Turning 27 today is for me a plus! I am hopeful and that is why I say so. I am grateful too. There is still so much grounds to cover. I know. So many more people to meet,share, bless , be blessed through and all. I am going to think and live this next one as one who is counting every hour like it is the last and going to give it my best shot! I am going to make it count. I am courageuos. I am encouraged. I am motivated!Dont get it twisted...I choose to do something about what I can do something about and leave to a power higher and greater than me to do that which I can not do for and by myself.
I know...
that
Life is complicated by time.
If one knew how things would turn, guess there would be less to probably regret because we would make our choices and decisions slower, surer and wiser! Life has taught me amongst other things that what I do while am waiting determines my character , it is therefore, wise for me to remain in the 'passenger seat' of the best chauffeur that aids life journey!
I am grateful STILL...
I remember again-
I have watched with admiration and appreciation to God as family members embrace the love of God after years that I have trusted and believed God for them.
- I have also watched marriages on the brink of collapse come back again.
-I have seen friends off to the airport, car parks and bid them farewell, amidst tears of joy that no matter where this life takes us, we will still be friends.
-This last one year, I have seen my self sleep deeper, and quit worrying over what lies ahead! -I have summoned enough courage to learn and keep learning from experiences and though some of them are to be forgotten, their lessons have stayed!
- I have embraced forgiveness, compassion and a newer zeal to contribute my quota to nation building.
- Yeah, I have watched myself walk however slowly but surely, away from all that cause pain!
I am ready...
- I make bold to say , bring it on Lord!
new burdens
new rooms,
new challenges,
new capacities,
new thinking,
new dreams,
new levels!
*new devils*
I am going to...
Build capacity to accommodate more rooms. I am doing it , it is me! I choose to listen , believe and trust the voice of truth. The one that says do not be afraid! Selah!
Happy birthday to me! I have come a mighty long way just because God kept me!
Happy birthday, Omobolanle Agnes. It is your birthday! Be rest assured that your Father got your back in the years ahead.
It’s my birthday , and these two songs I present to my maker. I present as an act of worship. I present from a heart filled with profound appreciation. This song, is to you, my first love. Jesus the one who loves me even before I loved Him. The one whose love for me is truer than the one I have for Him. Thank you Lord, it is to you I sing on my birthday!
I’m pressing on the upward way,
New heights am gaining everyday.
Still praying as I onward bound,
Lord plant my feet on higher ground.
Lord lift me up and let me stand by faith on heaven’s table –land,
A higher plane than I have found;
Lord plant my feet on higher ground.
…
I have found a friend in Jesus,
He’s everything to me,
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul,
the lily of the valley,
in Him alone I see,
all I need to cleanse and make me fully whole.
In sorrow He’s my comfort,
in trouble He’s my stay.
He tells me every care on Him to roll:
He is the lily of the valley the bright and morning star;
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
OMOBOLANLE AGNES!
17102009
new rooms,
new challenges,
new capacities,
new thinking,
new dreams,
new levels!
*new devils*
I am going to...
Build capacity to accommodate more rooms. I am doing it , it is me! I choose to listen , believe and trust the voice of truth. The one that says do not be afraid! Selah!
Happy birthday to me! I have come a mighty long way just because God kept me!
Happy birthday, Omobolanle Agnes. It is your birthday! Be rest assured that your Father got your back in the years ahead.
It’s my birthday , and these two songs I present to my maker. I present as an act of worship. I present from a heart filled with profound appreciation. This song, is to you, my first love. Jesus the one who loves me even before I loved Him. The one whose love for me is truer than the one I have for Him. Thank you Lord, it is to you I sing on my birthday!
I’m pressing on the upward way,
New heights am gaining everyday.
Still praying as I onward bound,
Lord plant my feet on higher ground.
Lord lift me up and let me stand by faith on heaven’s table –land,
A higher plane than I have found;
Lord plant my feet on higher ground.
…
I have found a friend in Jesus,
He’s everything to me,
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul,
the lily of the valley,
in Him alone I see,
all I need to cleanse and make me fully whole.
In sorrow He’s my comfort,
in trouble He’s my stay.
He tells me every care on Him to roll:
He is the lily of the valley the bright and morning star;
He’s the fairest of ten thousand to my soul.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
OMOBOLANLE AGNES!
17102009
